Today I had kind of a breakdown. It was the feeling you get when absolutely nothing goes as planned. x1000. I was walking alone in the street and the only thing I could think about was that OTH quote, "Not good enough, not smart enough, not pretty enough". I felt so useless. I was disappointed and mad at myself, because I felt as if every choice I have ever made had been a mistake. Just your casual Monday thought.
But then I got home and everything changed. I wasn’t alone with my demons, but surrounded by people that I know care about me. For the first time in an awfully long time, I feel like I have someone. Apart from my family, who I love with all my heart and soul, I have amazing friends. They’re sweet and kind. And insane, which is always good. I have never felt like I could come up to someone and say, "Hey, this has happened. I’m sad and I don’t know what to do." and I’d be taken seriously and not made fun of. Now I know I can tell them I’m going through the silliest crisis and they will listen, care and even come up with ideas to solve the problem. And I could not be more grateful for that.
I’m in a really good place in my life right now and I am not letting anything change that. Now THAT is my casual Monday thought.